Stiemsma's battle with depression, and the man who saved him

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Stiemsma's battle with depression, and the man who saved him

The curtains were drawn and the door was shut, blocking out the rest of the world. Inside, Greg Stiemsma lay in bed while the TV flickered, the noise falling on deaf ears as he watched the monitor without processing the program.

Another restless night.

Sleep wasnt coming easy to the college sophomore. Not when he was struggling with basketball. Not when he was facing academic ineligibility. Not when he was coming to the realization that he was battling depression.

An unexpected knock on the apartment door at 3am interrupted the endless frustration. Stiemsma left his bedroom, a task that had become challenging over time, to welcome his visitor.

University of Wisconsins mens basketball athletic trainer Henry Perez-Guerra stood outside in the dead of night. Stiemsma had a bad day and he wanted to check on him. The young center let Perez-Guerra in, and three hours later, he left having helped change Stiemsmas life.

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Stiemsma grew up in the village of Randolph, Wisconsin, a small community with less than 2,000 people about 80 miles northwest of Milwaukee. It is the kind of place where most people know one another -- Stiemsmas graduating high school class only had 46 students -- and they all knew the tall, blonde basketball player.

Its a nice little town, Stiemsma told CSNNE.com. Highway 73 actually cuts right through and you dont even have to stop. Its like our main road, theres no stop light. Theres a stop sign a mile out of town, which we call Mile Corner, where two state highways come together, just two lanes. But you can literally drive right through our main drag by where the grade school, a couple churches, and a gas station are without stopping. Actually one night me and a couple of my buddies named every street in town.

Randolph is also a sports-driven community, where residents throw their support to teams from the Milwaukee Bucks to the University of Wisconsin Badgers, all the way down to the high school level.

Stiemsma led the Randolph High School basketball team to three consecutive Division 4 state titles. He was recruited by the University of Wisconsin basketball squad and left for Madison with the support of an entire community behind him.

He also felt the pressures.

Coming from a town of 1,500 people, it was huge, said the 6-11 center. Everybodys Badger fans. For them to have one of their little boys go to the big city, it was a big thing. So there were a lot of people looking up to me and still now. I think, to a kind of negative, all that weight was on my shoulders too. At times it gets overwhelming. But at the same time, if I can be happy with what Im doing in myself, they can get on board with that too.

Stiemsma suffered a stress fracture in his right foot during his freshman year that limited his playing time. Disappointed, he looked to bounce back his sophomore year. Only this time, he encountered another issue that kept him away from the game.

Stiemsma worked to maintain a 3.0 grade point average in high school. College was different, though, and he struggled with having less structure. Even though he had a practice schedule to follow, he wasnt returning home after school to his parents reminding him to do his homework.

As a sophomore, he lived in an off-campus apartment with the freedom to come and go -- and do or not do -- as he pleased. There were days Stiemsma would choose to stay in. When he attended his courses, that was often the extent of it. Id show up to class and sit there, he said. As a result, his grades began to suffer.

It was always like a dream to go play at the University of Wisconsin, he said. I dont even know if I kind of realized how big of a deal it kind of was at the time. I was maybe a little overwhelmed when I was there. I mean, 18, 19-year-old kid coming into this situation. There were times when it was a little too much to handle. I almost had kind of a false sense of reality of, Oh stuff will get done. Things always work out. They always have. But I wasnt really putting in the time to make sure those things were getting done.

He added, My freshman year, there was a little bit of a learning curve. But living in the dorms and stuff, it was a little more structured, study table time that we had to go to. But at the same time, my sophomore year I got into an apartment, a little more freedom, and theres not anybody there telling you what time to go to bed at night, not holding your hand to go to class. If you dont want to do those things, you just dont do it. Theres no repercussion, really, besides your grades. I just kind of let it all build up. It got to be the point of no return where it ended up not being able to be fixed.

Stiemsma was aware of his academic problems in his first semester and they spilled on to his basketball career. He became distant from his teammates. He didnt seem to have the same interest in the game that he had as a freshman. Already grappling with a lackluster first season, difficulties on the academic side further compounded Stiemsmas struggles.

He internalized his problems to cope. When his parents asked how school was going, he kept the conversation short. When they asked how he was doing, he smiled and tried to appear happy. It couldnt have been farther from the truth.

Its kind of a weird feeling, Stiemsma said. Youre kind of in a funk, kind of not really motivated. I didnt really do much with my teammates at the time, who were great. Some of my best friends now were even some of my teammates from then. But it was kind of laying around, sleeping a lot. If I didnt have to go to practice, I probably wouldnt leave my bedroom. Id just go get something to eat and thats about it.

These changes in mood didnt go unnoticed, though, especially by the teams trainer, Perez-Guerra. As part of the team for more than 20 years, Perez-Guerra views his job as more than treatment and taping before a game. He uses his time with the players to talk to them, see how things are going in their lives, and help however he can. In Stiemsmas case, he could sense something was wrong.

Between academics and basketball not going as well as he wanted to on the floor, he started becoming more and more withdrawn, sad, almost to the point where he really didnt care about basketball, Perez-Guerra told CSNNE.com in a telephone interview. He was looking more towards, why was he feeling this way -- Why am I here? Im not sure I really need to be here or I dont deserve to be here. There were a lot of complicated issues that he was dealing with.

Stiemsmas struggles culminated the day he received the status of his grades. They had dropped so much there was little he could do to salvage them. In a last ditch effort to no avail, he called his teachers and tried to schedule meetings, hoping a visit or conversation could change the final results.

It wasnt their fault, he said. They cant just hand out grades and pretend to make everything better.

Ultimately Stiemsma received the news he had been anticipating but was trying to ignore -- he was academically ineligible for the 2006 Spring semester.

Some tears were shed when I found out, he recalled. That was one of those days where I didnt want to do anything. I had to be at a couple of meetings. I just showed up and was there, but I wasnt saying much. I was just thinking about all of the people that I let down, the whole town, my coaching staff, my teammates.

At a point in his life when he felt so alone, Perez-Guerra stepped in to make sure Stiemsma knew he had a support system around him. He talked, he listened, he was simply there whenever Stiemsma needed him.

And then there was that 3am visit, which both men brought it up as a significant moment in their relationship.

I knew that he was having a really, really rough day that day and I was really concerned, Perez-Guerra recalled. Obviously in these cases you cant rule out anything and I just wanted to make sure he was ok. I feel that thats part of what I do as an athletic trainer beyond treatment, rehabilitation, but also being there for people who may have a mental issue going on.

I honestly felt a little uncomfortable and I just wanted to go and make sure he was alright, and thats what I did. I believe we talked for about two or three hours, and I think thats where he took the next step and decided that he had a problem and he wanted to get better.

Said Stiemsma, He just stopped by and said, I was thinking about you. I wanted to stop in and make sure youre doing alright. He was always more than willing to help me out and help me feel better. I wouldnt have made it through this without him.

From that point, Perez-Guerra enlisted the help of the teams physician and also recommended Stiemsma see a therapist. Before there could be any solutions, Stiemsma had to address the problem. Not only was it a dose of pride to swallow, it was also a vulnerable moment of being honest and attacking all issues head on.

While it was challenging to open up at first, Stiemsma found comfort in the fact that the therapist had been suggested by such a reliable source.

I knew I had a problem and I knew I had to get it fixed, he said. I trusted my trainer with anything and he told me, This guy knows what hes doing. He knows what hes talking about. So the more you can open up to him and let him know whats going on, the more and quicker he can help you.

The recovery process didnt happen overnight. Stiemsma took a short period of time away from the basketball team, in which they supported him. After extensive conversations with his therapist, he was diagnosed with depression.

Looking back now, Stiemsma believes there may have been glimpses of it prior to his sophomore year of college. At one point during high school, he went through a stretch where basketball wasnt as fun as it should be, and met with his parents and coaches to talk about how he was feeling.

Maybe it was a little sign of it then, but not nearly to the extent, Stiemsma said. My mom always told me when I was younger and I was going through high school, If you ever feel like you cant really shake getting down, then dont be afraid to go talk to somebody about it. Shes been aware of it and stuff, so I think I kind of knew something was off and I kind of figured it was that, but then once I actually got the diagnosis it was something to work on.

Stiemsma and his therapist worked together to identify the root of the problem, which he described as a culmination of things -- the overwhelming situation, the pressure I put on myself, and everything like that. Then, he began taking baby steps to overcome it.

I had to really think if I actually wanted to come back and play, Stiemsma said. But once I got through it, I had some techniques. Set little goals for yourself and build from the positives. Little things like get up, eat breakfast, go to this class, start a book, go shopping for something, as small as those things seem, when it was at its worst point you dont even think of doing stuff like that. But once I got things turned around, it kind of started rolling on its own and it kind of had a snowball effect but in a positive way.

The shades in the room came up, the bedroom door was opened. Sleep came easier and he once again looked forward to being around his teammates.

Stiemsma enrolled in directed study courses which offered one-on-one time with teachers. He gained confidence in his academic work and finished the second semester of his sophomore year with a 3.8 G.P.A.

Even when I first initially accepted things, like it happened, its over, weve got to take the next step, the weight was kind of lifted, he said. Let it all go, let the pressures go. Yeah, you messed up but you cant let that be your defining moment. Youve got to make that moment how you recover from it, not the mistake.

Stiemsma returned to the basketball team and played a total of 69 games in his final two seasons. Undrafted out of college in 2008, he pursued a career overseas and in the NBA Development League.

After playing for winning teams for most of his life, Stiemsma had to deal with losing for one of the first times -- That was something to overcome because you put in all this work in and at the end of the day we kept coming up short, so it was trying, he said.

The ups and downs tested the big man, but after overcoming his battle in college, he was equipped to tackle the challenges he faced on the way to the pros.

I learned it is a grind at times, but youve got to keep your eye on the bigger prize, a longer ways down the road, he said. I really came to believe that things do happen for a reason. As crazy as it seems sometimes or maybe not as obvious as you might think sometimes, but things do happen for a reason and Im just trying to follow the path that I know is out there for me. I try to remind myself of that every day.

In December Stiemsma realized his dream of the NBA when he was signed by the Boston Celtics. At 26 years old, he is a rookie on a veteran team learning the ropes of a championship contender in a shortened season.

Once unable to handle the pressures of leaving Randolph and playing college ball in Madison, Stiemsma now steps on the court at the TD Garden in front of a crowd ten times the size of his hometown population.

Theres no team Id rather be playing for, he said. Theres no other situation Id rather be in than this one right now. I am trying to learn as much as I can from these guys and absorb all the information they have. Hopefully, Ill keep sticking around for as long as I can.

As Perez-Guerra keeps tabs on Stiemsmas career from Wisconsin, he is proud of the NBA player who struggled in college. At the same time, he would be proud of Stiemsma no matter what job he held.

Whether he plays for the Boston Celtics or hes working in the business world or whatever, I will always be proud of Greg. he said. I think hes a young man that sort of took the bull by the horns and decided that he needed to get ahead of this thing. He understands that this is going to be a life-long issue with him, but he knows he has the tools to handle it and the resources to take care of things like this.

Im also proud of the fact that he went public with it. I think that he probably has touched lives of somebody out there knowing that a major Division 1 athlete came out and expressed that he was going through some depression issues and that he was going to take care of it. Ill always be proud of Greg no matter what. Hes a good person.

The feeling is mutual.

Said Stiemsma of Perez-Guerra, He literally saved my life.

C's edge out Sixers 107-106

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C's edge out Sixers 107-106

The Boston Celtics had another one of those nights when the defense took a lot longer to get on track than anyone with the Celtics could have felt comfortable about.

But they made just enough plays down the stretch to squeak out a 107-106 win.

Isaiah Thomas led all scorers with 37 points to go with seven assists.

Philadelphia's Dario Saric, who finished with 21 points and 12 rebounds off the bench, missed a 3-pointer that was defended tightly by Jonas Jerebko, that was rebounded by Marcus Smart.

With 8.6 seconds to play, Smart made both free throws to make it a two-possession game.

Philadelphia's Ersan Ilyasova hit a 3-pointer with 2.8 seconds to play, which led to Boston's Brad Stevens immediately calling a time-out.

Coming out of the time-out, Boston's Jae Crowder in-bounded the ball to Al Horford who was fouled with 1.7 seconds to play.

Horford made both free throws to seal the victory. With a four-point lead, Ilyasova hit yet another 3-pointer as the final horn expired.

Down the stretch, the Celtics were led by Thomas who scored 12 of their last 17 points.

After leading 90-88, Thomas scored eight straight to put Boston ahead 98-91.

But the Sixers were getting a career night from Saric whose scoop shot with 34.6 seconds to play tied the game at 100.

Following a Celtics time-out, Thomas continued his dominant fourth quarter with a blow by lay-up past Saric.

The Sixers, down 102-100, called a time-out with 30 seconds.

Philadelphia had three shots at the rim following the time-out, but the ball eventually wound up in the hands of Avery Bradley who was fouled with 16.3 seconds to play.

Bradley,who had 20 points and nine rebounds, made the second of the two free throws that put Boston ahead by three points.

After being tied at 74 through three quarters, the Celtics opened the fourth with an 8-2 run highlighted by an Al Horford 3-pointer that made it an 82-76 game.

The Sixers called a time-out with 10:22 to play, well aware that the game’s fleeting momentum was squarely in Boston’s favor.

Philadelphia didn’t fall too far behind, but the Celtics’ control of the game seemed to continue to grow.

Boston got back into the game with timely stops, big blocks (Jaylen Brown) and a bunch of multiple effort plays which collectively were in stark contrast to how things went in the first half.

Philadelphia has been among the worst teams in the NBA this season, and were playing without their best player Joel Embiid who does not play in the second night of back-to-back games (Philadelphia played Orlando on Friday night).

So without their best interior force offensively, the Sixers relied heavily on their 3-point shooting.

It was a good strategy that the Celtics had no answer for in the first half which was one in which Boston spent primarily playing catch-up.

The Sixers, who came into the game ranked ninth in the NBA in 3-point shooting (36.1 percent) and seventh in 3-pointers made (10.6), were a blistering 9-for-18 on 3s in the first half.

Meanwhile, Boston’s offense never seemed to get into any kind of flow or rhythm which was a key to the Celtics going into the half trailing 53-45 after having fallen behind by as many as 11 points.

At the half: Sixers applying pressure early and often against the Celtics

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At the half: Sixers applying pressure early and often against the Celtics

The Celtics are getting more than they bargained for against the Philadelphia 76ers who are once again, record-wise, among the worst teams in the NBA.

They didn’t look like it in the first half which ended with the Celtics trailing the Sixers 53-45.

Boston came into the game having won its last four road games. And they did so by playing solid defense, something that has been noticeably absent in the first half.

Philadelphia came into the game as one of the NBA’s better 3-point shooting teams and has lived up to the lofty ranking.

In the first half Philadelphia made nine of its 18 three-point attempts while the Celtics are way, way, way at the other end of the 3-point shooting spectrum while missing eight of their 11 3s with Isaiah Thomas making a pair with the lone other made 3-pointer coming from Marcus Smart.

The defense struggled, the offense never had any kind of flow and not surprisingly, the Celtics found themselves playing from behind most of the first half.

Here are the first half stars from Saturday’s game.

STARS

Sergio Rodriguez: His playmaking was solid as usual, but it was Rodriguez getting it going with his jumper that really produced surprisingly strong results for the Sixers. He had 11 points, four assists and a steal in the first half.

Isaiah Thomas: Playing his game which is shooting and attacking the rim, Thomas was Boston’s lone double-digit scorer in the first half with 15 points which is tops among all players.

STUDS

Dario Saric: It was a solid first half as Saric contributed both on the boards and the scoreboard. He had 10 points in the first half along with five rebounds.

Gerald Henderson: Henderson had one of those high efficiency-type games with 11 points on 4-for-5 shooting.

DUDS

Celtics 3-point shooting: It was a miserable first half for a team that has been among the NBA’s leaders in 3-pointers made and taken this season. At the half, Boston has shot 2-for-10 on 3's.

Celtics defense: Boston has shown little to no signs of providing the kind of push-back they’ll need in order to leave Philly with a win. In addition to allowing Philadelphia to shoot 47.4 percent from the field, Boston also allowed the Sixers to knock down nine 3's.